And My Depression is Building...So Is My Anxiety

People in this office seem to think me as marble. No feeling whatsoever. The things I do just to keep this job. I am in a verge of a nervous breakdown. I don’t think I can handle this any longer. I don’t even think I will last until the end of the month. I want to scream. But I don’t think that’s possible. One thing because the place isn’t air-conditioned people will hear me outside of the building.

Hohum…I’m really depressed. But now I’m a little anxious. I honestly don’t like those feelings. Anxiety and depression. Signs of stress.

You might be wondering why do I have anxiety attacks and depression attacks today. It’s mostly due to the fact that I saw that my boss got to the documents that need to be signed that I made. I’m honestly thinking whether she would again scold me because of my English. I can’t take another insult. I don’t want to blow at her for all this anxiety panics that I am having. But it’s building and it’s really scary. I’m so afraid of what she might tell me if I go in her office and discuss about the documents. The pressure is building and I can’t handle it.

I don’t know what she would be telling me. I am afraid to know as well. I am so scared. I might even get fired today. My aunt can’t help me here. I am scared. I’m really scared. I’m not ready to lose this job.