So This is Where We're Heading

I just found out this morning that the guy I like in the office will be leaving sooner than I was expecting. Honestly, I'm hurting. Damn! I'm hurting so hard right now, I really want to break down and cry all night. Another person lost in my world, all because of this Godforsaken company.

I had done all I can for them and the least they can do is thank me for a job well done. But instead of that, I get scolded at for speaking my mind because we weren't being heard in the office. I was wrong, says my boss. And I wanted to kick his twinkie right then and there.

Like my officemate told me this morning, all the stress that I am having right now isn't worth it. I'm young and have a lot of things to offer for the world. I really don't need this company for me to go ahead. So while I'm young, I have to start thinking of myself for a change and get what I deserve. Not this stress that I am having right now which shouldn't really be happening to me. And as I see it, he is right. But the problem is, as compared to them their course gives them plenty of options to chose from in a career path. I on the other hand will have a hard time looking for work. And as much as I really hate it there now, I really just can't stand leaving the people there all alone. I know, I am not a savior of sorts but still, I feel responsible. I was the one who hired them in the first place. And now, I don't know what to do anymore.

I shed a few tears in the office this morning. But I have not shed all of my frustration out.I really don't think I can at the moment. I feel like all the emotions has drained away in my being and a hollow shell is all that is left of me.

I am hurting. I am angry. I want revenge. Enough is enough. Screw them for all the things that they have given to the team that makes our work harder than what should be.

Now the problem is how to do it...