Closure...I think...

Last week I went up to my mom's province of Albay to "celebrate" All Saint's Day there...and I was really hoping to end a chapter in my life that had actually started there as well.

One thing I'm sure of, my ex and I will remain friends...it pains me to admit it but the only ill-feelings I have for him is that he never did explain to me the reason for the break up. But aside from that, I have nothing against the guy.

In my week stay in Bicol, I also got to spend time with my ex's family. Shockingly enough they didn't change the way the treat me. I am still welcomed with open arms and that was the greatest feeling for me. That even though I'm not together with their brother or their son, I still feel that they love me. And I feel good about it because I love his family very much and my initial fear of the breakup was that they won't welcome me anymore. It was really great to see that they like me hanging out with them.

And my god daughter, Iera, was the most adorable little girl I have ever encountered. She's talented and very smart for her age, though I think she got her ninang's spunk and katigasan ng ulo. =) hehehehe...

And the kicker...On my last day there, my ex finally introduce me to his present girlfriend. And try as I might to hate her I really can't because she's really nice and actually fun to be with. I actually regretted not meeting her sooner (I blame that on my ex because he was the one who has some reserves of us meeting). I was thinking that maybe I get to spend more time with her, we'll really be good friends.

And I guess, because of that I think I can honestly say that I can move on with my life. Don't get me wrong, I have been trying so hard to move on eversince the first break up but I think now it's safe to say that I can actually have a genuine smile on my face again. =)

Will I open myself to love again? Hmm...that is really not certain. Though, I have accepted the fact that my ex and I will never get back together, I'm still in love with the guy (first serious relationship that lasted four years so it's really hard to just let go) and I'm still cautious now because of what happened.

Well, as my friend Paul told me before, "just enjoy yourself, Mitch. Try to have all the fun you can. Love will find a way to your heart again, all you have to do is have faith."

Cheers to you Paul, I hope you're right.