As I type this down, I'm already starting to think of the reaction of people with this entry. I know a lot will really hate me for it but what the hell...it's a free country...I'll live with the consequences and type it anyway.
Ever since I was born, I have this curse of not gaining any weight and mass. I look sickly thin and even with the appetite that I have I really didn't gain any weight. Everyone said it was just because I was a very active kid and I burn fat easily.
As I was growing up, my recreational activities has started to decrease until such a time that I didn't have any extra-curricular activities at all except for the usual chores I do at home which isn't much. But still I didn't gain any weight. I'm still the same as before or even sometimes I got a little thinner than I already was. Still they explained it to me that my body just burn fat easy.
Now that I am working, I got a chance to actually work out in the gym. It might not be better than biking from Las Piñas to Tagaytay but it's a chance to work out again. My goal is to gain the ideal weight for my height. I have been in the gym for 6months already and my body weight has been going up and down. There was one time I finally reached 100lbs only to lose 10lbs in 2 days. How I did it I really don't know but to me it really sucked big time!
All my life I have been trying to gain weight. When I was a kid, I was always bullied by bigger kids who have a lot more mass than me and it really ticked me off that they are of the same age as me but they have big bodies and I'm stuck to being a toothpick.
I have so many nicknames: toothpick, chopstick, lollipop, bamboo, twig, skinny...just to name a few. And since then I was really determined to at least gain a little weight so that I won't resemble the ones that were mentioned above. But I have struggled and until now, I am struggling. It's not easy.
A lot of people envy my body...honestly speaking I really don't know why. How can anyone like a body that might fly away if it's a windy day? (and honestly, I almost did if it wasn't for my friend who was holding me down). How can anyone appreciate a body like mine when they can insult the people who brought you up that you weren't being taken care of properly even though you eat twice as much as a normal person? How can anyone like a body like mine when people resent you having a fast metabolism and even if you do not flaunt it, you still get envied because they see you eat and wonder where it all went?
Taken all these things into consideration, there are only a few times I like my body. The only time I really appreciate my body is when I go shopping for clothes and I don't have a problem buying one. Being thin and all, i can wear anything I want whether they're over-sized, just right or too small. It doesn't matter what size clothing I wear, I can handle it without any problem. But as I've said, that's the only thing wonderful about my fast metabolism.
So, I have defied the norms. People around me are trying their best to lose weight. They do all kinds of stuff to their bodies like diets, work-outs, aerobics, martial arts and so on just to get rid of the excess fat that they carry in their bodies. Starving themselves because they gained a few pounds. But for me, I do the opposite. I eat what I want without and in any quantity that I want and pray that I gain a little weight and let it stick to my body longer than a day. I work out just so that I can add muscles in my body so that I can be heavier. I do martial arts not because i want to lose weight but because it's a form of self defense.
Most of the time when I'm with my friends and they shun away the food that I'm offering because they say that they're on a diet, I just look at them strangely and answer, "What is this thing that you call diet? What does it do?"
But miracle of miracles! When my aunt saw me two weeks ago, she said that I look good and I'm not that thin anymore!!!! How my heart jumped for joy just hearing those words from her that I actually gotten a little fat!
Again I have defied the norms! When people around me scream in disgust that they gained weight or their clothes won't fit them anymore, I held a party celebrating my weight gain!!!
If this goes on, I might be able to get to my ideal fatness. =) Here's hoping that I won't loose it come Christmas.
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