What should have been a great feeling isn't really great if your the only one feeling it. I find myself in love with someone who will never be mine. It actually pains me everyday when I see him, but I really can't do anything about it.
This sucks! After 2 years of picking up the pieces, being dateless and just having friends as a source of gimmick companions, it's really not fair that the next guy who I want to come into my life couldn't. It's not fair that I have feelings for someone who can never be mine. Why can't I fall in love with the right guy? Why am I stuck at this scenario of falling for the wrong guy? Why do I have to be the only one in the room without someone?
Yes, at this time, I am looking. I want to be with someone who I want to spend the rest of my life with. This is not because I have friends left and right who are already married or going to be married or planning to get married but I find myself in that stage where I know I'm ready to move forward in my life but unfortunately, no one to move forward with. And what really pains me is that I am in love right now but I know that it can never be. Even with this feeling, I'm not happy because I know its a lost cause. I know that I have to stop because nothing will come of it.
I get to see him almost everyday, talk to him, tease him, hang out with him but the fact that by the end of the day, I'm just one more pal. Nothing more.
The only thing I can do right now is love him from a distance...hoping that he's happy.
2 comments:
unrequited love... sigh..
I think I experienced something close to unrequited love back in college. Or was it just because he had a girlfriend at the time? Hahahaha. Joke lang. Cheer up.
- haze
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