Plans not pushing

Last weekend, there was a sale and I had a plan. Buy shoes and a bag. I ended up buying four books instead. Though I'm happy about the purchase (who would be happy with books anyway?), I seem to have this knack of not following a well laid out plan.

Much like everything else in my life right now, I have a plan that's well laid out. I have everything I need for that plan to follow through but I ended up doing something else differently at the end. It's actually a good thing though that with all the planning that I have been doing in my life and not following through with it as I should have been doing, I usually end up doing okay in the end.

Plans will never be full proof. That I can attest. With all the time that I have been doing thinking, re-thinking and planning, only to end up winging it makes me wonder two things: is life really better if I just wing it all the time? Or the plans that I have been doing for most of my life weren't supposed to be the ones that I should be doing?

It's really hard. Especially when things aren't going according to plan all the time. I usually end up doing something else entirely and though its all good in the end, I keep going back to what might have been and wonder if I had stuck to the plan would it have been better than okay.

Wondering would get me no where. And now I see myself formulating another plan for my life. Trying to get myself organized and lay it down again for me follow it through. Now I wonder, will I really follow through with it? Or am I going to end up winging it once more?