Falling Really Hard

Here I go again! Right when I thought that I should have learned my lesson from the last one, I find myself in the same situation as before.

I fell, and I fell hard. The only problem is that he isn't there to catch me.

I'm in this situation once more, where I find myself in love with a guy who doesn't like me back the same way. It's really hard considering he's the one I'm usually with everyday.

Why I gotten myself in this situation once more? Probably because I am with him everyday, and we talk a lot that I've gotten to know him very well. And I really like what I see and hear.

But I think I'm just like a sister to him. Someone he could open up to and talk about almost everything, including his past relationships. But he also confuses me sometimes as well. He asks for my opinion on a lot of things and we have a healthy debate on things that we don't agree on. He lets me listen to his music and tells me stuff that he likes including movies, food, songs and Disney Classics, etc. We waits for me so we could go home together (though we separate when we reach Megamall). And I notice that he doesn't treat me the same way he treats our other female officemates. But then again, he keeps on insisting that he doesn't want to be with anybody right now...he wants to enjoy being single for a change.

It's actually frustrating on my side because I like him and every time we're together, I keep hoping that just once Cupid would be nice to me and make him like me back.

It's not fair! I find a guy and I can't have him! I like his good side and I can tolerate his flaws...either that or I've really fallen harder than I thought that I really wouldn't care if he committed murder.

It's suppose to be a nice feeling. But right now, I'm really more hurt than happy because he's right there but I feel like I'm miles away that he doesn't see me.

There's a part of the song in "Save the Best for Last" by Vanessa Williams that's really opt for me right now:
"How can you give your love to someone else
And share your dreams with me?
Sometimes the very thing you're looking for,
Is the one thing you can't see."

Will I be able to finish this song?

"Just when I thought our chance had passed
You'd go and save the best for last..."

Sorry for ranting...but I just really have to let this out before I burst...