My Progress

Two entries ago, I have shared the reason why I haven't been writing. It was because of burn out. It really pains me that I still suffer from it until now, 8months after I left my last company. Taking a break did help a bit, but still a little stress every now and then comes into my life...which actually doesn't help in my recovery.

Until now, I'm still struggling. I haven't been writing in my blog and I have been trying so hard to finish up the stories that are picking up dust on my shelf. But little by little, I think I'm recovering. I have completed two RO stories that I have been writing for two years and another one in the works. It's not easy, but little by little I can see it developing in my mind.

The little DVD player in my mind is working every now and then. I see images and scenes for the stories that I write clearer now than before. But unlike before that I could finish up the whole movie in one sitting, this time it comes and goes...I only get to see bits and pieces of scenes that I would like to write about.

It's a good thing because at least I get to write again. I can write up what I see in my mind with no problem. But since it comes in waves and it's not constant, I only get to write bits at a time...only when the scene is very vivid in my mind.

I guess, it's progress. I was frustrated before that I couldn't even write a decent email. Now, I can and I am able to write stories even if it's just bits at a time. I can write reviews again that make sense rather than just a bunch of ramblings.

I'm a work in progress. And I am hoping that the time will come when the DVD player in my mind would allow me to see my stories clearly and would not stop until I can actually finish the whole story. But right now, I'm just happy that I can write a piece at a time.