One Step At A Time

Last night, I had a breakthrough.

For months now...I guess it's actually coming to be a year, that I haven't really lifted a pen to write stories. I felt like I'm bone dry with my creativity and my muse hasn't really visited for quite some time. Added to what has been going on in my personal and family life that has wreaked havoc in my emotions, it really didn't help my already frustrated mind. The DVD player in my mind hasn't played anything so the stories that are pending are collecting dust on my shelf and I really couldn't do anything about it. I couldn't write. And it frustrated me to no end that I couldn't see like I did before, when all I needed to do was close my eyes and I could see a story forming.

But a breakthrough I had and I hope it would continue.

Last night, after saying good night to my family the DVD player started to play again and I had started writing once more. It was still a bit choppy...like I was watching from a pirated DVD but it was there and it was playing and the story just fell into place. I ended up sleeping at 4am but I felt energized.

I'm not done with that story that I was writing...well far from it...I only wrote about 4 pages worth. But I got to write and it gave me hope that I will be able to continue writing. It's a slow progress but it's progress.

There was a time that I felt like the whole world is against me. With every bad thing happening one after another in my life, my writing was the only thing that kept me going. And with almost a year that I haven't lifted a pen, I felt like nothing will ever be right in my life. So, I can't deny that last night had brought a small smile to my face. It made me feel like I could be someone again. It made me feel like I wasn't abandoned. It gave me strength to move forward.

So, like I said. One step at a time. I hope that I'll finally be able to fully write like before but right now, I'm taking things slow. And I'm hoping that I'll be able to finish all the pending works that I have yet to finish and then some...may even write for money again.