Highs, Lows and a Congratulations

I’m sorry for not writing something yesterday. I have been busy with housework, and curing my cold which has become full blown with cough on the side. It’s not as worse as when I had pneumonia but it’s still awful. I hate getting the common cold. It’s irritating and it’s one of those viruses that just doesn’t want to leave quickly.

Anyway, to my low points first. Aside from my cold, I had the misfortune of having friends who doesn’t care at all. Try as I might to understand their situation, they just don’t see all the sacrifice that I do for them. They keep giving you excuses and for the life of me I had enough.

Take for example my friend Rocky. Last Friday we were suppose to meet to have coffee in Starbucks at Ayala Town Center. I’ve spent two weeks getting people to come. I’ve asked, begged even pleading on my knees for them to just drop by for all time sake. I even told some of my friends that if they are financially not able to get there, I’ll shoulder their expenses. But still, only four of us came out of the twelve that was suppose to come. My biggest disappointment was Rocky because he was the reason I spent all those times preparing for the meeting. A few days before the preparation our friend Lea told me that Rocky was looking forward for our next gimmick together. I responded by looking for the best date and after confirming from Rocky himself if he will be available on that day, I’ve started making phone calls. Honestly speaking, if Rocky just told me that he would be available that day, I would have just spend the rest of those two weeks thinking of good stories to write to fanfiction.net instead of convincing my friends to come with us to Starbucks.

I honestly would have understand, I’m not that kind of person who’s narrow minded. Some of my friends that I’ve called really told me that they would try to make it but still not sure whether they can of not. I just pleaded so that they would say yes to me even if I would have to pay for their orders just to get them to be there on that day. Rocky on the other hand told me he will be there, no questions asked. He may be late but he will be there, so he said. On the day itself, he didn’t even try to call or send me an SMS to tell me that he couldn’t come (or won’t come as I have a feeling that he did). Lea had to call him just to find out that he couldn’t come at all. We were already in Starbucks that time, waiting who would still be coming when Lea called Rocky and gave me the bad news.

That really pissed me off that night. First of all, I wasn’t feeling well that night. I lack sleep, I had so many work that morning that I had to cram for the whole day just so that I would be on time to pick up my baby brother Louis from his office to go to Starbucks that night and my cold was becoming worse by the hour I’ve spent working. I already finished a roll of tissue paper from blowing on my nose. But I still came because I organized the whole thing and I was hoping to see most of my friends that night. Secondly, I did it for Rocky. He asked for a night with his friends and I tried so damn hard to give it to him. I called him up to say when it was okay, I even confirmed it from him if it was an okay date. All the hard work I did was all for nothing when it concerned him. Third, this wasn’t the first time my friends did this to me. When we were in high school I had organized my events countless times to be disappointed in the end. One time, I was the only one who was there and none of my friends even tried to call me to tell me that they can’t come. Fourth, I felt embarrassed to my baby brother who had so many things to do that week and I just begged him to come and being a good baby brother and he really can’t say no to me, he still went that night. I was really embarrassed to face him when only me, him, Lea and our friend Dean were the only four people who came that night. We were really hoping there would be more of us. And lastly, I’ve wasted good money just to call everyone there. I’ve wasted pre-paid credits so that I could get in touch with my so-called friends to just get them to come last Friday.

At least I know who my real friends are. That would be the last time, I’m going to organize a get together for my friends. I not only felt I was being used but I also felt like trash that night. All my efforts had gone to waste when I saw the usual people getting together. I felt at my utmost low that night. I was so humiliated and toyed with that I honestly just want to crawl into a hole that night and stay there for the rest of my existence. It was really a good thing that my real friends were there that night and made the night fun and interesting despite the lack of numbers. We even get to see and old high school classmate of ours and got some news about our old batch in high school.

The night wore on looking brighter by the hour making me forget that awful feeling. We even ended up going to Dean’s house and see the progress that he has done with it. I applaud my friend Dean for the achievement he’s done so far. To Dean, thank you for being my friend. I raise my glass high to toast you of your achievements and being there despite your financial situation. Same goes to Lea and Louis Dean. I guess my night would really be really low if it wasn’t for the two of you there. You gave me a reason to enjoy the night. And I thank you for that. A toast to you my friends! You’re the best!

Needless to say the next day, I didn’t get to play RPG. Not only I wasn’t allowed because of my cold but I had other things to do as well. And to make matters worse, Card Captor Sakura didn’t air because the local network were it’s being aired was covering the stupid war! Yes, I still did not change my stand. The war is still stupid. There should have been a better way to change this without bombing and bloodshed but still the stupid US president wouldn’t listen to reason, his people and the Pope. And honestly speaking rallies wouldn’t help at this stage as well. Last Friday my aunt was with those rallying people who wants peace. As much as I myself want peace, I don’t think a rally would let the rulers listen to what you have to say. You’ll just end up getting literally soaked with water being hosed at you or you get rained at like what happened to my aunt and boss.

The good thing about last Saturday is that at least I got to rest longer. I got to catch up on my sleep and I feel better already. I can breathe better and I think my cold is reduced to the sniffles and I’m not coughing that much anymore.  At least there’s something good. Let’s just say that it’s getting better everyday. 

Last Friday I also got praised by my boss for the job I’ve done encoding some materials she will use for a seminar. It’s really good to hear a praise coming from someone who’s not a family member. At least you know that it’s not because you’re blood related but because you’ve really done well. And I have spend the whole day of Thursday just to make that only to repeat it Friday morning because my computer conked up on me. It was really a refreshing sound to hear a praise instead of scolding from your unbearable aunt. 

Lastly, a big congratulations to MR. KIMI RAIKKONEN for winning the first place of the Malaysian Grand Prix. The ICEMAN did it!!! And I’m sure there will be a lot of commotion going in the Official Kimi Raikkonen forum because of it. :D He drove a good race. Kept his cool and followed his team. He wasn’t cocky. He’s really great and I have new admiration for him. Again, to the ICEMAN congratulations!!! We at the Forum hope and pray that you get to be World Champion this year. :D

I have another week ahead of me. And I hope that it will be as wacky as last week. :D