A little upset

Today was kind of a disappointing day for me.

I went to our usual Saturday meeting of my RPG friends only to find out that I would be playing boggle the whole time I was there...Oh yeah, I made my dwarf character for Dungeons and Dragons so I guess it was what we term it in Filipino "consuelo".

Okay, even if I did have fun playing boggle, I was actually hoping I could break in my dice. Four d6s wasn't my idea of breaking in my dice set.

I guess I'm upset that my friends would actually leave me to be with other people that day as well. I came there to play RPG with my friends, I ended up baby sitting the gremlins as we play boggle. I guess I'm still just depressed because my baby brother would be moving to Bulacan in a month's time and I'm still feeling that all my friends are leaving me.

It was really just upsetting that I went there thinking that I would actually enjoy the afternoon with my friends but ended up doing something else that wasn't actually what I was planning to be doing the whole time I was there. Not that I don't like them making new friends and all but that afternoon, I felt like I was abandoned or something. Nicco was sulking at a table drawing alone. Kate was playing something else with some people I don't know. Jay went for a walk right after he said that I'm finish in making my DnD character (his mind wasn't even there when he was helping me out). That left me trying to help Robi get over his lost phone, convincing Kevin to actually open his vocabulary and play boggle and keep Reggie interested in playing boggle.

I just try to be open minded and just think that they need to do those things that day. It helped that when I was going home Jay apologized already. But at the moment, I'm still upset. I didn't say anything that time because there were people I don't know and I really don't want to make a scene. It wasn't right to leave me all alone that way. It honestly hurt to be shut out the way they had shut me out this afternoon. I had accepted Jay's apology (don't get me wrong) but it still stung and I need to vent this out before it becomes something that shouldn't be. As I've said, I think my being upset is due to the fact that I'm feeling that my friends are abandoning me if not physically then most probably emotionally and psychologically. I don't want to go through what I had experience years ago with my two best friends. (I might tell you something about that in future blogs but not in this blog)

Tomorrow I will be okay and probably forgotten already what had happened but I need to vent this out before it consumes me.