Disappointed With Myself

I blew it! I blew the interview! I saw in the interviewer's eyes that I won't be getting the job. I'm very disappointed with myself. I feel like I'm so stupid I couldn't even talk properly.

I felt like I was Kimi Raikkonen when he rammed into Antonio Pizzonia last Sunday during the race. He didn't even get to start. I didn't start properly and I ended up banging on the wall. At the beginning of the interview I started to stutter and blabber. I didn't even know what I was saying.

I thought I got it. Dang! It's the third interview and I blew it. I won't be expecting their call tomorrow. I wouldn't get my hopes up with the blunder I did last night. It was truly disappointing. I hate myself for acting so stupid yesterday. And I was actually looking forward to working in the Makati area. At least it would only take around 2hours going to and from work...not the 6hours I'm experiencing now.

Oh well. At least I still have a job. The most boring job in the world but at least I get paid for it. If God has a plan for me, so be it. I won't argue anymore.