Stress, Stress and more stress

Hohum...

For the passed few weeks I have been a walking zombie. The phrase "so many things to do, so little time" really applies to me at the moment. I really feel the weariness and stress come over me. I am mentally and physically tired from all the work that I do in the office. Not to mention the added work I do when I go home.

Since my parents are here, I have to juggle being a daughter, a sister, a friend, a care taker and an employee. Not to mention the added stress of being an ex-girlfriend of someone who broke up with me (yes, I was dumped) and still can't get over the idea that I went out to lunch with my officemates who are guys.

I am training people at the moment, but I have to make sure all the other people still do their jobs. And if they have a problem, I have to know and find a way to help them out as much as possible. Plus the fact that I have to evaluate one person in his performance and make sure that he doesn't make a mistake anymore. And I have to observe one of the people I helped promoted because there have been some complaints about him. And I have to talk to the HR manager so that I know what I can do for "my people" concerning their raise and stuff. And of course, trying to get this guy to like me is the hardest one of all. I know it's not that important but it's one challenge I'm up for.

The only thing good about all the work that I'm doing is that I get to talk to that particular guy that I like more often. =D And I get to find out a lot about him from the conversations that we have. He's even genuinely concerned about my health. But the problem is, I don't think that he likes me that way. I guess I have to be stuck as his buddy all my life. =(

That is actually a stress reliever for me. To be able to talk to him often I mean. I guess, I have to settle being his friend.

Work has been taking his toll on me. But I don't think that I would be given an assistant due to our lack of people at the moment. It's really so stressful and since I'm the only one who can do the job that I'm doing right now, I can't seem to find a way to get some real rest. The guy I like has been telling me to get some rest because he has seen me look so tired and harassed.

Honestly, he's right. I do need a rest. My boss has also been telling me the same thing. But at the moment, I really don't see how I can. I have so many things to fix and people to train. I really don't know when I can get a time out from all of this.

"So many things to do, so little time." Those immortal words will keep crossing my mind until I can get this aching body (and heart) some time out...when that would be...who knows?