Happy Valentine's Day???

Well, well, well...another year another "celebration" of a very "heart-warming" holiday...Valentine's Day. Also known to most of us as "Single Awareness Day"

Yes, it's that time of year again...and this year after four years in a relationship, I will again celebrate it alone. I guess all my friends right now who I usually meet on Saturdays will be out in their romantic rendezvous somewhere in Metro Manila. There would be couple eating dinner, watching movies, going dancing, in the beach, in Tagaytay, in.... well you get my point. =)

Okay...admittedly I am lonely. These are those times of the year that being with someone really means something for me. Yes, I am a hopeless romantic. I'm that kind of girl who really loves it when your significant other shows how much he loves her. I really like it when I get kissed or cuddled or being told sweet nothings by my man...(and yes as I write this, my face is turning into a grimace...'I can't be that kind of girl,' is the phrase that's running through my mind).

Yeah, admittedly one of the reasons why I have reserves going to meet my friends every Saturday is because of that. I see them with someone and I don't have anyone. And what scares me is that Mr. Right may not be coming at all.

This guy I like in the office has got back together with his old girlfriend and by the looks of things, I guess they won't be breaking up anymore. My chance with this guy is really 0%. I now have to settle being his friend. The good thing about it, he tells me stuff about his life and I really appreciate that. That means, I am a good friend to him..right?

But that's all I'll ever be. A friend. Nothing more, nothing less.

And while my ex fiance and I are in speaking terms and actually are going into that stage of being friends, I don't think we'll ever get back together. Four years of my life wasted in a lie.

I have friends...Yes I have a lot of those...And I love them dearly. I cherish them with all my heart. But it's still different when you have someone...and I mean someone who would be there for you, call you in that term of endearment that you use with each other, text you all the time just to tell you how much he loves you, call you up to ask if you've eaten lunch already...those kind of things that even if your friends do it to you it won't be the same if your guy or girl would be saying or doing it to you.

A simple rose. In all those four years, I never gotten a rose from him. But I still loved him nevertheless. In all those four years, I was the one who buys him flowers...funny huh? And now, I wish that I have somenoe to give flowers to.

Yup, Singles Awareness Day...I'm single, I'm aware and it really sucks big time.