Just a few weeks ago, we have gotten news from our parents that they've finally found a job for my older brother in Dubai. It was something my older brother had been waiting for ever since he graduated college (not so long ago mind you).
Anyway, it's really mixed feeling for me at the moment. I'm really happy that finally my brother would start to really work and not just some free lance jobs that he's been getting ever since he was in college (or I think even before it). At least he'll get to work out of the country like what he's been dreaming about ever since he was a kid (okay so he was planning to go to Germany at first but this is the second best place he can go to). And at least he'll get to find time on his own worrying about himself for a change and not about us most of the time. And he get to fulfill his dream for the family. He might even end up falling in love again. =)
I'm really happy for my older brother. It's what he really wanted to do and I guess it's high time that he gets it. I mean, 10 years in college is no easy feat so now that he can finally work he'll be great at it.
I'm just concerned about some things though. With my brother gone, we need to make adjustments yet again. Schedules and stuff needs to be worked out so that we won't have a problem when he really leaves.
Then there are these things that needs to be done as well before he leaves. One of the most important things is that for me to actually learn how to drive (and I mean really drive if I can like Victor) in a span of a month. Impossible I know, but it has to be done. With my brother no longer here to do chauffer duties for the family it is really up to my younger brother to really know everything there is to know about driving and so that he can be a great replacement for my older brother when he leaves. Unfortunately, he still has a lot to learn.
We have of course plan B. Where I get to learn how to drive like my older brother. And since as he says I'm more than capable to drive the van because I have more presence of mind than my younger brother. Now, all I have to do is actually learn how to drive. Driving the van isn't really that hard, since it's automatic but I have never driven in my life (not unless you count the times I spent in the arcade) and there was only one time I got in front of the wheel of our van and that was one time only. I have yet to drive again.
I asked some friends of mine to help me out but with the schedule that we're currently keeping right now it's really impossible. And driving school is out of the questions since I really can't afford it.
It's a dilemna I have right now. Top it off that my brother is leaving in 2 months at the least. With all the changes that's happening right now in my family I really don't know what to do anymore! There are aslo some things that I need to do at home and at work and to top is off, I also need to learn how to drive before my older brother leaves the country.
Happy, anxious, sad, excited and terrified...so much feelings fit in one small body. Can I handle it?
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