Woe is Me...

Tomorrow, I will be part of the team who will be moving out of our old office into the new one located at the mall. Moving to Market! Market! has its ups and downs. New office, more food choices, a chance to actually watch a movie during break time would be the ups. But then again, having no microwave, and no bathroom of our own is one of the downs. And then of course, away from my friends and HIM.

Among the original LU people that stayed in Mobius, I am the only one who would be moving to the other office. I would actually be leaving my security blankets behind. I would be alone and that really freaks me out. It's a little bit my fault for actually depending on them most of the time as my emotional support and comfort zone. I actually had a sense of security that even if I screw up, they would be there ready to help me out when I fall. It's really not easy. I haven't even left and I'm already going nuts. Fearful of what might happen that they won't be there to catch me when I fall. It's a scary feeling. Because, much like the time when my parents left the country, I'm alone again. And it's really scaring me.

And then, there's him. In my previous blog entry some time before, I did admit that there was this guy in the office that I like. He doesn't know it...and for some reason, I don't want him to find out for fear that he would change how he sees me and would never talk to me again. Now, I won't see him regularly, if I will even see him at all anymore. Just when things are getting better and we're getting closer, things like this happens. Now, I can't even look at him in the distance anymore...(a reason for this is the fact that the new office doesn't have a window...hehe...joke) because I won't be able to see him period. Saddest time of my life...but it has to be done, otherwise what will happen to my team.

Well, I still hope that he's happy. I hope that whatever plan he has, it would pull off and succeed. I hope that he won't forget that there was a time when we got close and I told him my problems. I hope he won't forget that he's one of the people I trust the most in the office. At least, even for a short time, we got close, even if he doesn't realize that I like him. It was fun while it lasted. At least I have memories.

This move had better be worth the sacrifice.