Bon Voyage, Jie!

As I'm writing this entry, my older sister is on her way to the airport to go to Helsinki. She'll be there for 6 years.

I honestly can't help but feel so all alone now. The one female who I had considered not just my sister but my best friend is off to finally live her dream. The only girl who had understood me the most will no longer be at my side. The only girl who could understand and tolerate my weirdness, my pathetic ways, my choice in guys and my choices in life will be miles away with an 8 hour time difference that would make communicating really difficult.

She just left about 30 minutes ago and already I miss her. She's my strength, my sounding board, inspiration, my hero. Right now, I feel so lost as to what to do. I had always counted on her in almost everything I do with my life and now that she left I feel numb. The fear of everything going wrong is already seeping in and she's not there to reassure me that everything will be okay in the end.

I'm going to be filling in very big shoes. It's daunting but I have make her proud of me. I need to reassure her that she doesn't need to worry.

As I cannot think straight today, I'll just leave this entry in it's confusing form and just say farewell to my Jie jie and have a safe journey to Helsinki.