Getting Myself Together

Wow!
It has been a long time since I've posted something here! Where do I begin?

Let's start with what has happend to me for the passed week. Last week was hell week for us all in the office and I really thought that I wouldn't be able to get pass all of the trials that they had given to us...I also thought that I was going to lose my job...Good thing that I still have it right now, with added responsibilities and added stress. But the best part of that is I get to do what I want to do with my life...you can say that I have found my calling. =)

Well, for the passed week, we have been going through some major changes in the office. I for one can understand what has been going on. A company that is slowly growing needs to have these changes or else you won't see any progress...right? But the thing that ticked me off was because we need to do these changes quickly and with a deadline or else we will find ourselves out of a job. Anyway, last week was a week of sleeping over in the office or my friend Christine (she's also my office mate by the way) so that we would be able to finish what was needed to be done. It was really hard...though most of the time you will be finding us laughing and kidding around in the office instead of doing the work that needed to be done. Oh well, I'm happy that was over...but the challenging part is yet to come I'm afraid.

I was assigned to be the unofficial HR personel of out department...(thank God it's not the whole company)...and honestly speaking, I'm a bit frightened but it's a challenge... This is going to be a test of the things that I have learned in school...and though I know what to do in theory, I still have yet to understand what I need to do in practice...looking at people's resumes are hard enough without having a personal bias against the applicant...now what would happend if I get to talk to them face to face? I'm really scared. Picking the phone up and looking for them to schedule them for an interview is hard enough as it is... The only people I really get to talk to on the phone are my friends...and I make sure that they answer the phone before I call them up. It is a misconception that I enjoy talking on the phone...on the contrary, the only person I want to spend hours talking to is my boyfriend, and that I only just wanted to listen to him breathing (yeah, yeah, it's corny I know but what can I say? I'm inlove with the guy). But the rest, I dread picking up the phone and talking to someone. I don't even like talking to my parents on the phone...as much as I miss them, there is something about the phone that is scary (too much conspiracy theory movies if you ask me...hehehe).

Anyway, going back to my original train of thought...I am scared of this challenge that's put upon me but I have to do it...I love a good challenge, so why do I feel scared? Well, being scared is natural...if I wasn't scared then there is something terribly wrong with me (as if there is nothing wrong with me already.... O_o). But as I always say, being afraid is one thing but doing something about it makes all the difference.

So, with that said. I'm going to smile and face the new day! I'm going to let everybody think that I'm not scared of this responsibility. I'm going to face them and give the best that I can with this new responsibility...I can do this... I will not be afraid, I will face this challenge and smile because I will be good at it, I will be the best they will get and with that I might get the job as HR Manager....(kapal talaga ng mukha mo Michelle...)

So, shall we dance?